… like the one I had last night: I was pregnant and had to deliver the baby by myself, even though I was in the middle of a supermarket. No-one really acknowledged me though. Not as if I was invisible, but as if nothing perculiar was happening. But when I was delivering the baby, I had actually cut my stomach open and had to take the baby out in pieces. It was mainly its limbs and torso, because it’s head and shoulderblades were stuck. I remember asking someone (I think it was my mum?) for help, because I knew I was dying if I didn’t get the baby out soon. And the feeling was unreal. I honestly felt like I was dying, as if it was harder to breathe and I felt empty like my life was slipping away from me. In my dream, though, it was all so normal. Like the idea of grabbing a baby (nevertheless in pieces) out of my stomach was normal. The most odd dream I’ve had in a while.

I am SO wasting my summer. Thing is… I can’t get a job, start doing my TEFL course or anything until my sixteenth birthday which is still two weeks away. So I’m trying to fill my time with photography, working out, learning French, writing and watching TV. I’M BORED! And everyone has disappeared I’m so aloooooone!

Anyway! I’ve started a photo blog: http://danabeaton.tumblr.com/ That is if I keep to it. I also joined that 365 Project to try and keep myself motivated to take more photos throughout the holidays, but I keep forgetting my camera. I HAVE, however, finished two films so I’m gonna get them developed tomorrow. And they awesomely enough give you the photos on a CD too, so you don’t have to scan every single one. WOOHOO!

Thought I’d upload a crap try at Autumn Leaves haha. Sorry about the awful sound!

I finally used my film camera after all of these months. The shots aren’t great, but a few came out that I really liked!

are so annoying sometimes. I won’t go into huge detail but I will bring up one thing! There’s two English papers in the two different exams. I got an averaged A in English Literature which was awesome! Then the English Language I got an A* in one paper! I was raving! I’ve never gotten an A* ever and I really want a good English grade because of art/film/screenwriting aspirations. But the second paper… I’d apparently left out a question, which I either mis-read on what/how many you were supposed to do or wasn’t told to ignore the unstructions and it ended up being a D, even though I got a 28/30 and 23/30 on the questions I did do! One of the English teachers told me my answers were brilliant but because I’d forgotten one… I think this is where I use my brother’s annoying “facepalm” word. At least it only averaged up to a B, but man! I HAD AN A FUCKING *!

It’s only the mocks… but I wanted to use them as predicted grades for part-time jobs and applying to schools. So would it be wrong of me to put A* instead of the B on my CV? Since I know I can get it and would have if I’d done the question!