So I had to get up pretty early today to record the courtroom voice-over. It took half an hour to set up the camera equipment and then five minutes to actually record and I was done haha. Laura, who plays Debbie (I did the Chinese takeaway scene with her), just had to do a scream which pretty much deafened us. It was really funny haha. The guy doing boom’s – sorry, never actually caught his name – face was so shocked by the volume! They – him and the director/camera man, Wayne – had to stand ten feet back to record the scream. And let me tell you, it was LOUD. It’s for the scene when Debbie finds her fiance, Damon, dead in the bathtub. Lovely.

Anyway, I got home around 10am and can’t believe how early it is. I was so used to sleeping in… I have no idea what I’m gonna do today… maybe go for a run outside, rather than in the gym, since it’s so sunny. I’m trying to keep exercising regularly and I didn’t go yesterday so I better do something today. And I should probably learn some French. And maybe add a few pages more to my screenplay. And tear the wallpaper off my wall so I can paint it white. I’ve decided to use one wall of my room to display my photographs and build on my portfolio. Not that anyone will see it really haha.

I walked so much today. The crazy long walk from the bus station to the gym caused me to wonder whether there was any point in going. But I did. I was too exhausted to use the treadmill so I went on the bike and eliptical, which ended up being a bigger workout than the run would have been. It was REALLY hot today. Fuck.

I got a funny text from a good friend on the bus though: “OMG my bus driver is such a BABE! I felt like such an idiot getting the child fare xD” (she’s not even a child fare anymore, she’s just cheap…. I’m kidding! I love you, darling!) Now MY bus driver was a real babe. Sexy beer belly and luscious silver hair… but when he shouted really mean-like at another driver = total turnoff. =) hahaha!

So so so exhausted, yet it’s quarter to three and I’m not sleeping. I feel guilty for not working on my screenplay at all today. I started watching Private Practice instead. Still watching it now. Nine episodes in one go? Think the only way to describe that is… SAD. My eyes hurt. Bye bye!

I want to get my fat percentage low and then obviously replace it with some muscle, so I don’t look weak and bony. So I technically want to be more athletic and since I don’t naturally have an athletic body shape I need to work harder. I know that TV and the internet tells you that an hourglass shape is the “most desired”, I prefer the lanky, androgynous, model look. For me that is. I’m not saying you have you look like that to look good, because I actually don’t think it depends at all on your shape, whether you look good or not. There are hot skinny and curvy people in the world. I just haven’t been given a black girl’s butt to pull off the curvy look. I’m lanky, with problem areas hahaha!

New routine:

Cardio at least 4 times a week, including spin class twice a week.
I am starting kickboxing with a friend, but I think they’re on the same night as spin class so I might mix and match.
Running at least once and possibly swimming.

Then each day I’m going to focus on a body part such as: arms & chest, stomach, butt and legs.

Sunday can be a rest day haha, but I will probably spread the cardio out so I have a rest day inbetween.

This is the diet I’ve been doing for the past three months:

Water, water, water, coffee. No fizzy drinks, ugh!
Low sugar and saturated fats.
No processed shit. As raw, fresh and healthy as possible!
Plenty of protein, vegetables.
Low on carbs (since most are high in sugar, which causes cravings) apart from rye or wheat.
Not a lot of fruit either because of sugar, maybe twice a week I’ll have a portion of fruit.
Lots of veggies!

It pretty much follows the South Beach Diet and the GI diet. I like to cook things properly, rather than readymade crap. I don’t really care if it takes longer. And it isn’t that hard, btw.

I really want to do this and won’t listen to anyone giving me shit about it.

So I haven’t really told anyone about the “diet” I’ve been on for a couple of months now. My family know and my best friend, but only because of my weird eating habits, how picky I am about unhealthy food and because sometimes it’s really hard for me to not bring it up in conversation. But I’ve decided to start a video blog (which will be anonymous as I don’t want all my friends finding it and taking the piss out of me, so good luck finding it), whether or not I will actually publish it online.

At the moment my diet has been really healthy, low sugar with lots of protein, good fats and fibre. I’ve been trying to up my exercise amount, which seems to continuously get interrupted because I keep catching the cold or some other pain in the ass illness. It is so annoying. And the thing is that I am pretty healthy all around, so I don’t know why my immune system is so crap! I am going to blame it on stress. I get stressed out really easily and apparently that’s supposed to lower your immune system because your body is focused on calming you down and whatnot.

I recently watching the “Super Skinny Me” documentary on YouTube (which I will give you the first part to below) as well as “Super Slim Me” and another show about girls who didn’t see anorexia as a disease, but as a lifestyle… yeah. Apart from the anorexia show, the other two really surprised me. I’m not saying they put me off of getting slimmer or gave me lots of tips! But I was surprised that a woman that was pretty much the same size and weight as me managed to fit into a pair of UK4 jeans after 5 weeks.

Although I would never try this, or am very unlikely to do this, I do want to try the maple syrup diet properly. I did a little bit of it for a few days, but I would like to try doing it properly for three days: just to “clean” my body before I start getting back into routine. I’m hoping to do my super healthy diet and exercise regime without getting sick again. The only thing I’m worried about is that this causes me to not be able to concentrate, or causes my migraines again, and that leads to me failing my exams. Yeah. Because my exams are three weeks after our holidays end and they begin on the 21st May. I was thinking that I could maybe just start in the summer if I want to do anything strict and just think to being healthy just now. I even considered limiting my computer/TV/DVD/anything electronic time to 1 hour a day, because I don’t even see why I would need it. Then making my exercises regime something like:

Monday – Spin Class 1 hr
Tuesday – Fitness at school 1hr
Wednesday – Spin Class 1hr
Thursday – Swimming at school 1hr
Friday – Light stretching, core exercises or yoga (lol me? yoga?)
Saturday – Easy run in the morning before I go out
Sunday – Rest day! Woo!

I think that sounds reasonable. I will probably end up doing Friday’s activities on Tuesday and Saturday as well.

Anyway, I have spoken so much in this entry. I really needed to, in order to explain everything. Which may or may not even interest you, but the main point was for me to lay out my plan to myself and just share it with anyone else on a similar “journey”. Man, I’m just so corny.

So I had my drama exam today! It went really well, I think. It helped that the examiner was so nice and we didn’t make any noticable mistakes. Actually…none I don’t think. I did stumble on my second last line on Wednesday night when we had to perform in front of the parents, but I don’t think I did in the exam =D That I can remember, anyway.

And we were actually so lucky, because we were given an improvisation (you get a prompt or theme twenty minutes before the exam to prepare) that was really similar to one we’d practiced with, so we just altered it and basically used the one we had practiced for three hours on the Sunday rehearsal.

Just for your information, we constitutes as my brother and I. I did it with him because I was a grade behind my friends (since I backed out of the Grade 5 exam last year) and didn’t want to do a monologue. I think I worked better with other people that acting by myself. I probably COULD have done some dramatic and sad scene, but… decided not to.

After swimming today, I’ve been so tired =( But I have noticed I’m getting slimmer! These weeks or exercising almost every day are finally paying off! Yay! Although I’m having to deal with my parents telling me if I get any skinnier, I’ll be invisible. It really pisses me off because I know I’m not skinny (and no I’m not one of those morons that is 10 year old girl skinny and denies it), I’m kind of slim but still classify as average. There’s nothing wrong with that, but I want to have the skinny androgynous sorta look. I LIKE that look. Then I can wear badass outfits and look GOOD =)

A lot of you are going to say I sound stupid, but whatthehell..

Guess what I got again? Another spam comment!

I’ve been managing to go to the gym a lot this week and hoping to keep it up. Today I spent 25 minutes on the crosstrainer, 2000m on the rowing machine, 10 minutes on the squat chair thingie and then 5 minutes on the treadmill to cool off. I’d probably stay on longer, but the council gym has this weird thing where a session is an hour and if you ask for longer they have to get the manager involved, so there’s no bloody point. I had no problems at David Lloyd. You could just come and go as you please. And they actually had showers that WORKED. But it was expensive there… and we live too far away to use it regularly.

Have to go an do my English homework as well as finish my art pictures. If I leave it for the weekend (oh shit, it’s Saturday tomorrow!) then I’ll just be stressed out!

Take care!

I found this video a couple of weeks ago and am amazed! Great song plus I so want to learn how to hula hoop properly now. I can’t find a hulahoop anywhere. I ended up fixing up my old one my tearing of the glittery material and wrapping it with bright orange duct tape. But it’s too small. You’re supposed to use one that is as tall as your belly button or something.

I don’t have time to write much, because I’m writing my application for a school at the moment. It’s due in four days (but there’s a Sunday, ya know) and my mum just realised that the school is supposed to send it, which ruins everything since she was going to send it special next day delivery or something. It’s going to Canada for crying out loud xD And now the fucking printer is going haywire since my dad tried to print something yesterday which resulted in blank sheets with stupid symbols on it AND IT WON’T FREAKING STOP!

I try not to talk about school too much, because I know it’s a boring subject and nothing unordinary. I’m studying for my mock exams and the moment, knowing I should have started at the start of the holidays. I revised loads last time and wasn’t overly happy with my results. They were good enough, but my science results sucked (parents were not pleased) and I’m having to resit them. So when everyone else is finished with their GCSEs, two weeks later I have to do more exams. Yay. I think some others will probably be resitting too, so at least I won’t be the only one. I can’t believe how goddamn awful I did on multiple choice! Pathetic! Haha.

I’ve taken some good pictures in the snow recently. More are over on my deviantart page.

Haven’t been sleeping well and I’m always tired >.< Plus I feel like I haven’t exercised in so long. I was planning on going swimming in the holidays but with Christmas and now studying, it doesn’t seem like I’ll have time. I’d probably go if we lived in the city, but because we’re in the country it’s so much effort to get my mum to take me and pick me up again. Can’t wait till I can drive!

Well I have to get back to my history revision. South Africa, here I come!

I’m interested in learning more about light painting, so this is my first experiment. It’s so cool! I’m totally serious about taking it further and doing bigger projects. If you have any suggestions, know any online guides etc, please let me know! Maybe one day I’ll be able to do this:

Haven’t been doing much else, been a bit ill and such (surprise surprise). I’m going into the art department at school tomorrow to try and do as much of the painting techniques as possible to put in my sketchbook. I also need to ask about my photographs so I can finally move on with finishing my photography project! -_- Phew.

The holidays start in about a week and two days! I’ve already done most of my Christmas shopping so I’ll probably just be working with photography, art, painting and such. I really miss going to the gym I feel like I don’t accomplish anything anymore when I’m not going. I only do aerobics and swimming at school (going running tomorrow morning!) and it feels pathetic xD Endorphin junkie <3

I’m thinking of taking up ballet, because I’d really to do contemporary and jazz dancing and I heard knowing ballet basics helps a lot. I’m already very balanced and have a strong core from exercise so I think I’m halfway there! I just can’t find any classes around here… I’m also at a stupid age to start. You either start when you’re 3 or 18 (adult classes) and I don’t know where to go without getting stuck with a bunch of little kids! Haha.

My latest art project is coming along okay, have done almost 40 pages in the sketchbook so far (s’where we show our progress and write about stuff we find out 8D). Unfortunately the photography project hasn’t gone much further than the photographs I posted a while back. One of the art teachers…well, he does all the wood stuff and carpenting stuff, is supposed to help me put the feet back in since they kinda got cut out xD. But he hasn’t been around lately. So…I’m a little behind. Shall try to post photos of my display when I have it done!

I’ve hurt my ankle and I don’t know how…I think it was while stretching for exercise or something and I pulled some muscle O.o Hoping I can do swimming tomorrow! It’s the only cardio thing I do (except run, which I’ve now planned to do on Saturday mornings) so I can’t miss it! I’m totally serious about getting fit and it’ll annoy me if I slack. My diet (!) has been going well so far. I’m cutting down on bad carbs and eating lots of veg. So far I haven’t had any cravings or given up!

Nothing exciting has been happening, just school and exercising and art projecting. The good stuff.