I got a record player for my birthday! YUUUUS! After weeks of looking at that box of records, yet to be listened to, I can finally play them. I also went to Groucho’s, this awesome music store in Dundee, to buy some singles and a couple albums that I can definitely say are my own. This included: Bob Marley, Patti Smith, The Who, The Jam, Robert Palmer, The Jackson 5 and Depeche Mode. From the hand-me-downs, I’ve mainly been listening to Blondie, David Bowie, The Knack and Dead Kennedys. It’s been awesome. The record player also has radio and an mp3 input/output. Eventually I will try and record mp3s so I have digital copies too.

I also got ‘The Passage by Justin Cronin’ which is really good so far. And then £60 from grandparents. I used the money to buy ‘The Bounty Hunter’ on DVD, a webcam, a cinema ticket, some records, food, tights, sunglasses… and I also got ripped off at the Baguette place. You want some advice? NEVER go to Baguette Express!!! They are shit and can’t even give you the right change… or non-stale bread for that matter. Losers.

Today has been a lazy day. I was sunbathing for about half an hour, but there were too many gross bugs around that seemed to really like my sun lotion v_v. So I went back inside, to continue trying to write my letter. I don’t think I have ever mentioned that I have a penfriend in America. Maybe I thought it was uncool. How stupid haha. Well I have a few penfriends, but some stopped writing. People just seem to do that. But that could be due to the summer and I’m sure they mentioned they were going away… Well anyway, I have an awesome penfriend in Philedelphia – hope I spelt that right – called Kim and she always writes back. She has insanely neat writing that makes me jealous and sends cool stuff =D Of course I do too, but whatever.

In an hour or so I’m going to a new gym to get a membership. I’m finally sixteen and can GO there, instead of the shitty council one that is LAME. Plus they offer personal trainers for a decent price, I think, which is really great too. I’m willing to work my ass off, but I need some help and coaching.

I want to get my fat percentage low and then obviously replace it with some muscle, so I don’t look weak and bony. So I technically want to be more athletic and since I don’t naturally have an athletic body shape I need to work harder. I know that TV and the internet tells you that an hourglass shape is the “most desired”, I prefer the lanky, androgynous, model look. For me that is. I’m not saying you have you look like that to look good, because I actually don’t think it depends at all on your shape, whether you look good or not. There are hot skinny and curvy people in the world. I just haven’t been given a black girl’s butt to pull off the curvy look. I’m lanky, with problem areas hahaha!

New routine:

Cardio at least 4 times a week, including spin class twice a week.
I am starting kickboxing with a friend, but I think they’re on the same night as spin class so I might mix and match.
Running at least once and possibly swimming.

Then each day I’m going to focus on a body part such as: arms & chest, stomach, butt and legs.

Sunday can be a rest day haha, but I will probably spread the cardio out so I have a rest day inbetween.

This is the diet I’ve been doing for the past three months:

Water, water, water, coffee. No fizzy drinks, ugh!
Low sugar and saturated fats.
No processed shit. As raw, fresh and healthy as possible!
Plenty of protein, vegetables.
Low on carbs (since most are high in sugar, which causes cravings) apart from rye or wheat.
Not a lot of fruit either because of sugar, maybe twice a week I’ll have a portion of fruit.
Lots of veggies!

It pretty much follows the South Beach Diet and the GI diet. I like to cook things properly, rather than readymade crap. I don’t really care if it takes longer. And it isn’t that hard, btw.

I really want to do this and won’t listen to anyone giving me shit about it.

I honestly cannot STAND people trying to control me. But that’s not what this blog is going to be about. I figured boring complaints about my life wouldn’t be very interesting to others, so I’m going to think about topics to argue about or go gaga over (this has absolutely nothing to do with Lady-Shithead-Gaga).

I absolutely-freaking-want this t-shirt. And some other shizz from Alexander Wang. You can check out his website here. I also read that there’s a shop in Glasgow, which is total good luck, because I’m also planning to go there soon to raid the American Apparel store. I’ve kinda changed my style again to rocker/herion-addict/boyish again, so that’s why I’m on a shopping spree all the time (even though I have no cash lol) and trying to *cough* get skinnier…

Kate totally rocks the look I want. (I can’t decide whether that is followed by a sad face or a happy face lol) But she is tiny. And I don’t mean short, cause she’s not. She’s about 5′ 8″ and I’m 5′ 9″. I’m just not ever gonna be that skinny, cause of these fucking genetic hips x.x lol

So I haven’t really told anyone about the “diet” I’ve been on for a couple of months now. My family know and my best friend, but only because of my weird eating habits, how picky I am about unhealthy food and because sometimes it’s really hard for me to not bring it up in conversation. But I’ve decided to start a video blog (which will be anonymous as I don’t want all my friends finding it and taking the piss out of me, so good luck finding it), whether or not I will actually publish it online.

At the moment my diet has been really healthy, low sugar with lots of protein, good fats and fibre. I’ve been trying to up my exercise amount, which seems to continuously get interrupted because I keep catching the cold or some other pain in the ass illness. It is so annoying. And the thing is that I am pretty healthy all around, so I don’t know why my immune system is so crap! I am going to blame it on stress. I get stressed out really easily and apparently that’s supposed to lower your immune system because your body is focused on calming you down and whatnot.

I recently watching the “Super Skinny Me” documentary on YouTube (which I will give you the first part to below) as well as “Super Slim Me” and another show about girls who didn’t see anorexia as a disease, but as a lifestyle… yeah. Apart from the anorexia show, the other two really surprised me. I’m not saying they put me off of getting slimmer or gave me lots of tips! But I was surprised that a woman that was pretty much the same size and weight as me managed to fit into a pair of UK4 jeans after 5 weeks.

Although I would never try this, or am very unlikely to do this, I do want to try the maple syrup diet properly. I did a little bit of it for a few days, but I would like to try doing it properly for three days: just to “clean” my body before I start getting back into routine. I’m hoping to do my super healthy diet and exercise regime without getting sick again. The only thing I’m worried about is that this causes me to not be able to concentrate, or causes my migraines again, and that leads to me failing my exams. Yeah. Because my exams are three weeks after our holidays end and they begin on the 21st May. I was thinking that I could maybe just start in the summer if I want to do anything strict and just think to being healthy just now. I even considered limiting my computer/TV/DVD/anything electronic time to 1 hour a day, because I don’t even see why I would need it. Then making my exercises regime something like:

Monday – Spin Class 1 hr
Tuesday – Fitness at school 1hr
Wednesday – Spin Class 1hr
Thursday – Swimming at school 1hr
Friday – Light stretching, core exercises or yoga (lol me? yoga?)
Saturday – Easy run in the morning before I go out
Sunday – Rest day! Woo!

I think that sounds reasonable. I will probably end up doing Friday’s activities on Tuesday and Saturday as well.

Anyway, I have spoken so much in this entry. I really needed to, in order to explain everything. Which may or may not even interest you, but the main point was for me to lay out my plan to myself and just share it with anyone else on a similar “journey”. Man, I’m just so corny.

So I had my drama exam today! It went really well, I think. It helped that the examiner was so nice and we didn’t make any noticable mistakes. Actually…none I don’t think. I did stumble on my second last line on Wednesday night when we had to perform in front of the parents, but I don’t think I did in the exam =D That I can remember, anyway.

And we were actually so lucky, because we were given an improvisation (you get a prompt or theme twenty minutes before the exam to prepare) that was really similar to one we’d practiced with, so we just altered it and basically used the one we had practiced for three hours on the Sunday rehearsal.

Just for your information, we constitutes as my brother and I. I did it with him because I was a grade behind my friends (since I backed out of the Grade 5 exam last year) and didn’t want to do a monologue. I think I worked better with other people that acting by myself. I probably COULD have done some dramatic and sad scene, but… decided not to.

After swimming today, I’ve been so tired =( But I have noticed I’m getting slimmer! These weeks or exercising almost every day are finally paying off! Yay! Although I’m having to deal with my parents telling me if I get any skinnier, I’ll be invisible. It really pisses me off because I know I’m not skinny (and no I’m not one of those morons that is 10 year old girl skinny and denies it), I’m kind of slim but still classify as average. There’s nothing wrong with that, but I want to have the skinny androgynous sorta look. I LIKE that look. Then I can wear badass outfits and look GOOD =)

A lot of you are going to say I sound stupid, but whatthehell..

I’m thinking of taking up ballet, because I’d really to do contemporary and jazz dancing and I heard knowing ballet basics helps a lot. I’m already very balanced and have a strong core from exercise so I think I’m halfway there! I just can’t find any classes around here… I’m also at a stupid age to start. You either start when you’re 3 or 18 (adult classes) and I don’t know where to go without getting stuck with a bunch of little kids! Haha.

My latest art project is coming along okay, have done almost 40 pages in the sketchbook so far (s’where we show our progress and write about stuff we find out 8D). Unfortunately the photography project hasn’t gone much further than the photographs I posted a while back. One of the art teachers…well, he does all the wood stuff and carpenting stuff, is supposed to help me put the feet back in since they kinda got cut out xD. But he hasn’t been around lately. So…I’m a little behind. Shall try to post photos of my display when I have it done!

I’ve hurt my ankle and I don’t know how…I think it was while stretching for exercise or something and I pulled some muscle O.o Hoping I can do swimming tomorrow! It’s the only cardio thing I do (except run, which I’ve now planned to do on Saturday mornings) so I can’t miss it! I’m totally serious about getting fit and it’ll annoy me if I slack. My diet (!) has been going well so far. I’m cutting down on bad carbs and eating lots of veg. So far I haven’t had any cravings or given up!

Nothing exciting has been happening, just school and exercising and art projecting. The good stuff.